everybody cries they say
everybody lies
everybody breathes they say
and everybody dies
but somehow that seems strange to me
that we should all believe
so completely what is given us
shoved in our faces.

can you breath?
for i feel "them" pressing down on me
their weight upon my spine
it crushes me and makes me small
and their rules,
they break my mind :(

she will be loved :)


Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long.
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know it's gonna make it that much
we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray
It might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But let's talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
Good night baby
Sleep tight baby :)

cant believe you're dead.
its all my fault.
i should have taken note of the signs.
i should have shown more concern
how could i have been so blind
its all my fault
what can i say
im so sorry ):

GLENN : u have seriously changed okae. ahhas. you are hahah-in and lolling! ahhahas.. who's ur love. come on . somebodys gta be resp for changing you so drastically. what happened to the silly man i use to know?!?! ahahha.... we'll see on thurs la huh. ahha X) its okae. i know u love me. haha. niteeeeeeee!

everybody.. please DO NOT watch e village... its e stupidest show i've ever watched in my whole life and a total waste of money. stupid movie. -irritated-

all e mocks are arriving.... and they've decided to arrive together! how nice....

another day has passed.... so glad schs over.. at least for today. time reali seemed to have stooped to a crawl recently.. cant blif the prelims are seriously drawing near. e very thought jus freaks me out!!! hmm. just caught up w cheri recently. a whole wave of euphoria just washed over me when i found out that we were finally able to study this fri at orchard lib!!! been waiting to catch up with her for so long. hope char ser and huishan wld be able to join us. then it wld reali be a gathering! hmmz. am watching spore idol ata moment and it reali amazes me that some people are so blinded with themselves that they reali think they are extremely talented and superiorly vocalized. i must admit though that courage plays a part.... but stupidity and self obsession plays a far bigger part nonetheless. hahah. well at least it serves as a source of amusement. okay.. obviously aint in an extremely gd mood ata moment.. haha.. usually i dun bang pple so much esp pple i dunno. well spore idol is over.. and so is my break. haiz. gotta hit the books again... adious! (:

ooh lovely colour. haha. so bimbotik eh? shall stick to this for the time being. hmmz am talking to cheri on msn now.. it was so funny. even before we actually conversed i was already laughing.. smiling and reminiscing about the good old times we use to share. just by looking at that adorable baby photo of hers. really miss the times when she jean char and i would just talk and do stupid stuff together. we were hardly seperable. yet now we're like all growing distant.. its reali qt a shame. but the saying is true. absence does make the heart grow fonder. and right now.. im feeling alot of both. there are plenty of good frens out there that i've grown further from.. shiping yuying del chow thanya ... too many to say.. hmmz. such an emotional topic.. pretty suitable for the coming of the As. its like an emotional rollercoaster that i cant wait to get out of. but right now.. theres no such thing as getting of halfway.. especially since we're nearing the end. hmmz. dont wanna worry anyone but somehow i feel qt demoralised at the moment. i dont feel like i can make it in the end. pretty sad huh?
its traumatizing. but tnk goodness i haf my classmates beside me whom i know are sharing pretty similar experiences right now. ahhahas. well. its nearly 12 now. shall stop crapping abt how horrible and dreary school life is ata moment and sink instead into the land of dreams. (:

WHO SHOULD LET GO?
>>
>>
>>
>>
>> > Eleven people were hanging on a rope under a helicopter - ten
>>men and
>> >one woman.
>> > The rope was not strong enough to carry them all, so they
>>decided that
>> >one
>> >
>> > has to drop off. Otherwise they were all going to fall. They
>>were not
>> >able
>> >
>> > to choose that person, but then the woman made a very touching
>>speech.
>> >
>> >
>> > She said that she would voluntarily let go of the rope, because
>>as a
>> >woman,
>> >
>> > she was used to giving up everything for her husband and kids,
>>and for
>> >men
>> >
>> > in general, without ever getting anything in return. As soon as
>>she
>> >finished
>> >
>> > her speech, all the men started clap! ping their hands..
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > SEND THIS STORY TO AN INTELLIGENT WOMAN SO THAT SHE HAS
>>SOMETHING TO
>> >SMILE ABOUT TODAY.

Singlish VS English_____
>Everyone should use Singlish because it's much more economical n >effective!
Here's why: > >***** > >

When going shopping_____

> >ENGLISH: I'm sorry, sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you >want in your size. If you'll give me a moment, I can call the other >outlets for you.

> >SINGLISH: No stock! > >*****


> >When returning a call_____

> >ENGLISH: Hello, this is Mr. Bean. Did anyone page me a few moments >ago?

> >SINGLISH: Hello, who page? > >*****



> >When someone is in the way_____ >

>ENGLISH: Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Will you please make way?

> >SINGLISH: Lai, siam!/Siam hor!/Skius!(Excuse) > >*****




> >When someone offers to pay_____


> >ENGLISH: Hey, put your wallet away. This drink's on me.

> >SINGLISH: No need lah! > >*****



> >When asking for permission_____

> >ENGLISH: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to >enter through this door?

> >SINGLISH: (Points at door) Can pass or not? > >*****



> >When asking to be excused_____

> >ENGLISH: If you would excuse me for a moment, I have to go to the >washroom. Carry on without me, it would only take a moment.

> >SINGLISH: Go toilet! Buay tahan... > >*****



> >When doubting someone_____

> >ENGLISH: I don't recall you giving me the money.

> >SINGLISH Got meh? > >*****


> >When disagreeing on a topic of discussion_____

> >ENGLISH: Err, Tom, I have to stop u there. I understand where you >are coming from but I really have to disagree with what you said >about the policy.

> >SINGLISH: Talk cock lah u! > >*****




> >When asking someone to lower their voice_____

> >ENGLISH: Excuse me, but can you lower your voice? I'm trying to >concentrate over here. > >SINGLISH: Aye, tiam lah! > >*****



> >When asking someone if s/he recognises you_____

> >ENGLISH: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me. Do I know you?
> >SINGLISH: See what see?! Buay Song ah!

now this little phrase here i really love!!! im nota feminist u guys!! well maybe a little.. hahah

++ the average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think ++ (:

heya PEI !!!
hey, din realise u signed my gb like in may? ahahs yeah damn long ago.. but anyhows. hows ya been? i hfnt been seeing u arnd in cj at all... ahhahas. exams are stressing me up man!! tc yep? :)

Two ghost met and chatted about how they died,
1st ghost : how u die?
2nd ghost : I died of cold
1st ghost : how does it feel when dying in cold?
2nd ghost : actually I was imprisoned in the refrigerator. at first I was
shivering, then my whole body started to freeze, later I felt the
whole world was dark and I died. fortunately, I died without much suffering.
1st ghost : what a pity for u....
2nd ghost : how about u? how u die?
1st ghost : I died of a heart attack.
2nd ghost : I see, how did u have a heart attack?
1st ghost : actually I found out that my wife is having an affair with
another man. one day when I came back from work, I saw a pair of male
shoes outside my house. then I realized that the guy was in my house with my wife.
when I rushed into the bedroom, my wife was alone. I must find where that bastard is hiding. so I searched the toilet, ran to downstairs, looked in the
storeroom, but the bastard was not found. so, I ran upstairs and search the wardrobe, but I found nothing. because I was too tired of running, I got heart attacked and
died.

2nd ghost : why not u look for the bastard in the fridge? if you did,
both of us would be alive now!

.:+ The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows your flaws and differences and yet still willingly embraces you with so much love +:.

hmmz. exams are FINALLY over. but time is closing in on the dreaded prelims. haiz. really gotta pull myself tog and study hard this time round. no more excuses no more time. i just found out that if i wanna go to melbourne uni commerce.. i gotta get A A B. if i apply soon they may even take my prelim results which means i have a mere 2 months to get A A B. such a laugh eh? its horribleeeeee. hmmz. anws, the hols are over.. exams werent as bad as i thought. but they were still bad... considering i hardly studied and i was the most ill prepared this time round. just went swimming with my classmates...! was reallly funn.. maisie was being as funny and gross as usual. ahhaahs. xue mei as usual swam the most laps and even helped me pack up my coins!! woah! ahhahas. not that i dun appreciate of course. ahhas but it kinda shocked me.. caitlyn was being sucha cute ORANGE. ahhas. ull understand if u come swimming with us. hahas. cait ah. i hope our hair aint too brown for school. i dun tink we did that much damage la huh. ahahhas X) nearly watched spidey2 yst. but thanks to choww and del.. i din geta watch with cind yunx yanz cel and um... yanz fren. ahahs. was pretty upset... considering they spent most of the time talking abt runescape!!! ahahs. but nvm. everytime spent with my gd ol pals are worth it rite? hahahas. (smirks) hmmz.. going shopping tmr with kristy! YAY! but first meeting up with flo for lunch. ahahs hopefully meeting up with dan and jess ltr at nite. wanted to force kristy ta watch spidey with me but she watched it already. hopefully i can watch it on mon with ping if not ill hfta drag delly to watch w me. ahhahas. i reali wanna catch it! it got like 5 starts inta newspaper!! thats like full marks!!! even chow complimented it.. and of cos i trust her taste.. on certain stuff at least. ahahs not her shoes tho. lolz....!! hmmz. spse to meet them to try out runescape now but dunno where they areeee. so i guess maybe ill pop by thomson plaza for a little while. hee. at least ive got till mon before the pressures of school arrive again. :)

hmmz.. its exactly one wk away from the dreadful exams.. history exam to be precise. my god. its truly mortifying. ive barely started and the grades i've to reach or get close to are A C C. how inta world am i suppose to achieve that if base on present circumstances i can barely even touch it! ughh. furthermore.. the stressful shortage of time is not only not stressing me to study. its causing me to slack even more! double irony eh. ah the satire of it all. oh well. 1 wk to my death date. guess ill just have to pray for the best and wish myself alot of luck!!! :(


del & chow... i know ure with me in this ordeal too. ahhas. i guess we just cant change our slackerish ways for the world man. best of luck to us!

HEY! hahaha im at hongkong now.. ahah very happie! bought jeans shirts lotsa other stuff. but theres still one more day of shopping left and i still got loads on my shopping list! ahah happy happy!!!! hmmz. if only my sister and my dad were here. ahhas i miss danny alot! ahaha... jean too. hmmz. dunno why these 2 pple keep popping into my head. hahahas. odd. anyway the fashion here is really weird. saw alot of funky stuff i wanted to buy but it was very very very expensive! was so upset. ahahhaa. oh yeah. sorry del cant buy ur jeans. i saw a really funky jeans with sparkling diamonds (fake ones of cos) ata back spelling outta funky word!!! the whole design was so cool. but it cost near $200 so forget it la huh. ahahhaa.. i nida rob a bank if i spent at that rate. ahahhas. one ting abt hk i love is all the HUGE signs!!! der are so many of dem! the food is great too. ahahhas.. hmmz its close to 11pm now. ahaha gta get back up to the hotel room, take a nice strong warm bath and jus relax and haf fun with my mom!!! the showers here are fantastic!!! room is kinda small tho. ahahas.. had a great day today!!! i love the plane rides too. great games and movies and tv shows! was intending to slp onta way here but ended up busying myself with krisworld. ahahha. inta end i jus spent the days dying of fatigue! retarded man.. the price of pleasure! ironical. hmmz. met up with my 10-yr-no-see relatives. ahahaha. theyre all so grown up now. its amazing!!!! ahahahas... they talk with accents and all. really cool. too bad we had limited time to catch up. ahahas.. alrite gtg!!! update u guys another time. ahahah.



heres a description or prediction of me. haha sum stupid love test again.

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

my gosh!! its been so so so so long since ive been online! ahah approximately 3 months! ahhas. anw.. lotsa tings haf been happeng to me. ive been in distress!!! ahahah in practically ev single aspect of my life!!! sch is terrible.. dunno y i seemed to haf lost my focus on lotsa stuff. cant seem to hafta discipline to achieve my triple A for the dreaded As. hmmz... fell outta contact with lotsa dear frens... it seems as if ive been enclosing myself or sth... oddly enuff.. the pple that im closest to ata moment (except my dear kacheng) is e badm pple...! it is ironic cos badm has alws been e one to bring misery to my life. ahhahas.. all the times tht i cried or felt reali depressed in cjc was all attributed to badm... ahhaha. how retarded is that. okay anw back to the present. well at least now ive gained back sum focus in my life.. am slightly more motivated to do my work... am happier now. to dis i hfta say thanks to 2 pple... xm doesnt come online... but oh well.. and to YOU.. tnks so much. hahaa. am not gna put ur name up here in case any funny rumours start or wteva. hahahah.. jus caught shrek yst with dan. it was ultra funny!!! both of us cldnt stop laughing!!! i esp loved the stupid INNOCENT CAT. ahha my gosh. it was jus superbly adorable!! ahhas. wldnt mind watchg it again or getg e vcd! ahha. e other movie i watched was troy (c how outdated i am) it was long!! abt 2 half hrs? lotsa nude scenes.. the guys and girl were hot! ahhas. but it reali put orlando bloom in an ultra bad lite. dun like him anymore. ahahhas e only next 2 movies on my list are kill bill (yep i knw im outdated) and harry potter!!! ahhaha cant wait!!! too bad i prob wun be able to catch it with jean char cher ser... deyr e pple i reali wna catch it with! hmmz... ders anastasia ltr at 7.30 onta disney ch! cant waita watch it.. e one disney movie i reali miss is aladdin. dunnno why dey hfnt shown it yet tho. perhaps its too old. hmmz. been watchg alot of tv lately... ahah din realise i was sucha addict!!! fav shows are friends... oc.. american idol... spongebob... totally spies... kim possible...sabrina...dexters lab... incredible tales.. missing and lots more! ahahas.. wun be surprised if i actually spend half my life slacking ata couch ahhaha. mid yrs are coming and im totally not prepared... been doing horridly at practically all subjs.... including MATHS.. how dreadful is that. dunno why recently i haf not been even attempting to study at all. well .. thats gta change man!!! okay my present ST goals in life are....

1) catch up w my frens
2) do much better than i expect for midyrs
3)catch up on all my hw
4) attain more cip hrs!!
5) maintain my physical level
6) stop being confused abt evtg
7) be more decisive!!!!
8) save lotsa $$ for future shopg sprees and pres!

hahaha yep thts all for now man... hmmz.. sports day was qt boring.. much more boring as compared to last yr.. dno whether its cos of the absence of juaner (kinda)...yunx...lala... yj. hmmz. had fun catchg up with becks chels and kai at mos tho! ahahah was damn funny... we stoned...talked...ate...danced a lil (me n becks) it was sucha slacker filled rubbish day!! enjoyed it thoroughly! ahhaa.. ill nv forget our walk thru the park. dun tell anyone abt e silly tings i did alrite? ahahaa esp the stones or pile of leaves. ahhas. talk abt embarrassing. becks and chels cldnt stop talking abt grad!!! ahaha.. must hang out with my class pple more often.. ahhas. alrite i gtg meet up with char and cheri soon for prata...!!! hfnt seen those twits for ages! hee.

NAPFA on mon....!!!!! hope i can get all A. hahaha.. dis silly knee of mine had beta heal...!!!! ahhaha. individual msgs now...

yunx lala cind yj yanz criz mai jose>> meet up soon okae?
ping >> same 4 u u twit!!! hahas.. stay over durin june?
kachengs >> miss u e most!!! call me and write me soon ok?
t08' pple >>> lets strive on okae? itll be over b4 u know it. hahah. -prays-
del chow >> lets play tennis!

hahah took a silly love test at http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm u guys can try it too. its reali silly tho. lolz. ahahha here are e results!!!

1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one which make you feel warmth and in-love always.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.

okae... i din manage to complete anymore goals. how annoying is tht! grr. nvm. okae first tings first. e bbq din go too badly.. i mean ... less than half the food caught fire. wahhas. and i was e only one der who knew how to start and keep e fire going! my gosh... the guys der are simply... umm... *******. hahaa. okae.. the food wasnt tht bad. e shopping was hilarious! ahhaa... sji guys are reali sji. ahhaha thts all i can say. suzie came along... and we ate mini melts! deyr gd.. but super ex! wah nv in my life again man. ahhas. e rest came late as usual.... ahhaa. and now cos of tht. im totally broke!!! I NEED THE MONEY BACK PPLE! hahaa. okae. tnk gdness dey din play truth or dare. ahah if not i wld prob haf died. one way or another. hahaa. watched resident evil aft tht. seriously love tht show...!!! still rem e funniest qns char cheri and jean were asking aft tht ahhahs. how i wish dey were here rite now X( hmmz. speaking of going overseas.. suzies gg! cldnt blif... hmmz. maybe ill meet her der sumtime... tink i mite be gg ata end of e yr. but not too sure. wonder wat itll be like den. hmmz. ping stayed over! hahahas. was reali glad she did. we cooked... and cooked! e food was alriteeeee la. hahaha. e brownie was fantastic! but we forgot to add e milky bar. haiz. and bcos of all e rubbish ive been eatin lately... im hafg a sore throat now! oh man... baddddd! seriously gna fall very ill soon... (bad feelg). was spse to complete jy's hw and ms angs too. but... ahha apparently.. i slpt e whole damn day away. how horrid is tht! nwo im reali starting to wonder if me and chow can keep up to our promiseee. hmm... anyhow... tmr got early morn run and PE again aft tht. tnk gdness ders no trainin aft pe. if not ill die like how i died on thurs! ahhas. 3 killers in a row ... ugh. hmmz. dunno why i suddenly tot of me and kristy laughin and laughin thruout the bbq and resident evil. dunno wota hell got into us. ahhas. now i undstd why gen tinks tht me and kris are ***** when we get tog. hahahas. but unforunately it is true. ahhahas. oh yah. cant blif e sn outing din work. ahahha okae individual msgs now!!!

jean >>> tnks alot! hurry send! call soon! luvya!
ping >> was really fun! forgot to gifya ur surprise pres tho :/
yanz >> u tc alrite? ahahah sorry abt the tanning ting!!! X)
'08 >>> hols over. here we go again... ahhaa
del >>> no more prata but more pool k? hehez.
egna >>> hurry msg when ur back! cant waita cya!!!
jose>> sths up wya blog man. come over soon k? ahha danny misses u!
yunx lala cindy junz>> lets go adels hse soon! haah miss her massage chair!

hmmz lets see... movie down. danny walked. ahahha i haf so many more goals to accomplish! -faints- ahaha. had training today. lotsa pple tot it was bad. but me and kristy din tink so. ahaha i guess we're too neutral oredi. ahhahs. e best pple inta team is gen and kris. dunno what ill do without dem. ahhaha prob get drowned by all e sn pple and suffocate n die. hahaha. (oops hope ure not readin dis) ahaha. gna hfa badm bbq soon at my hse! ahhaha hope i din get myself into unneccessary trouble by offerin my hse. hahaa. i also hope i dun get thrown into e pool. ahaha. (e guards r oredi peeved at me hahaha no tnks to char and cheri... for our yearly events) hmmz. jus realised im getg further away from many pple.. and closer to jus a few. hmmz. oh well it takes two hands to clap aft all... its jus amazing how past close or very close relations can jus slip away lidat. u may c each other daily and stuff. but evtgs jus diff now. hmmz. quite odd. schs gna start soon. and me and chow r gna hfta uphold our... um... promise no matter how diff it may be! hmmz. hahahs ive found new swimming buddies as well! deyr xuez and chels! ahahha so amusing. e least expected pple at my hse with the most unexpected fun! ahahha truly amazing. absolutely wonderful. ahhaha. but next time... cut down onta food supply yeah? ahahah. haf so many sms's to waste. how annoying. maybe i shall jus mass msg to try to maximise usage. ahhaha. hmmz. dun wna get back my results. cos aft i get it back. i may c pple go (i reali hope not.... haiz) and i hfta start studyin again. .. who noes... pple may go into depression and evtg'll be dreary again! lets hope not! hmmz.

here are the tings i wish for.... (tht $$ cant exactly buy)
1) my maid will be able to cook a proper meal
2) e trio in my class will be able to stay (prays extra hard!!!)
3) tht ill be able to go overseas!! hehez.